Jillian Johnson’s son Landon died five years ago, but she’s only talking about it now.

“I wanted to share for a long time about what happened to Landon, but I always feared what others would say and how I’d be judged,” Johnson wrote in a blog for The Fed Is Best Foundation, a non-profit organization focused on the complexities of infant feeding.

As a first-time mom, Johnson said she read every book and took every class she could, most of which emphasized the importance of breastfeeding. “Landon was on my breast – ALL OF THE TIME,” she wrote. “The lactation consultants would come in and see that ‘he had a great latch and was doing fine’ but there was one who mentioned I may have a problem producing milk.”

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